Friday, March 4, 2011


Weigh-in day came around and i lost 600grams. Not bad considering my poor organisational skills on the weekend.

Ive been hard at it this week but didnt exercise on Tuesday or Thursday. My food choices though were amazing. Since weigh-in day i have lost 500 grams which im hoping will mean a good thing on Wednesday.

This weekend i have declined an invitation to go to the local pub on Saturday night. Im not ready to be in a position where i might make bad choices. Like the people on The Biggest Loser i dont think i have learnt enough yet to be able to do this. Am i upset? NO. Its been awhile since i have had a "me" night so it will be good.

How have i been feeling? A little tired. Work has been busy and a change in hours has distrupted my life patterns a little. Should be better next week. Other than that i feel good.

I am playing mind games with myself. I sometimes wonder - what if im not losing weight and the scales are broken? What if they are telling me that but nothing is happening. I do seem to be eating a lot of food. Although in my heart i know that whilst i feel like im eating more food im just eating the right choices as opposed to the wrong ones.

Today i got a compliment. Someone said that they had been watching me in a meeting and had noticed that i had lost alot of weight in my face. Whilst i dont see it, i was happy that someone was recognising my efforts.

This week marks 26 weeks to Hawaii!!!! If i lose a kg a week then i will be about 10 kg off my goal weight. I would be happy for that in Hawaii. Im hoping though with training and following the 12WBT i might be able to get to my goal weight. That would mean a kg and a half a week. Either way i will be happy!


Sunday, February 27, 2011


I learnt a very important lesson ont the weekend....Its extremely important to remain organised when trying to live a healthy lifestyle!

On Saturday it was treat meal day. It was also the one day out of six weeks that i had to work a weekend. At work we organise lunch for our staff. So i thought i would organise something healthy for them as that would work out extremely convenient for me. So i brought bread, sandwiches, meat, cheese, salad etc. In addition to that i bought lollies and a whole heap of junk food. On Saturday, i over indulged in my lunch including having some chips and chocolate.

That night i also went to a 30th birthday and didnt eat before hand as i was still full from lunch. I went to the party and then later became hungry. Of all the times i had to feel that way. Nothing remotely healthy around so i ate terrible again.

I should have organised myself a lot better. I should have prepared lunch and dinner and just stuck with it as i thought i would be able to do the whole "make my own choices". I realise im not ready for that yet. Baby steps!

Although as i write this blog i realise that im blaming the lack of organisation. This is my excuse.

How do i feel today? I have a food hangover and i feel gross. Im going back to do some of my preseason tasks and i wont be putting myself in that position again.

I also made a decision today about what i will do when Bootcamp finishes in about 4 - 5 weeks. Im going to join the gym and go to classes. A lot of my friends go there and im really looking forward to the classes.

That's all from me today...hopefully the next post will be one of inspiration and passion!


Wednesday, February 23, 2011


I feel amazing. Enough said!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011


Today felt like a long day at work. By 5 o'clock i was dying to go home but was so exhausted. I ended up leaving work at 6 o'clock.

I had planned this week to go to the gym on Tuesday nights. Today is weigh-in day at work. We are doing a 12 week challenge. I dont like to eat or drink before this weigh-in hence why i dont want to exercise before work.

Driving home i had all the excuses going through my head. Im too tired, ive eaten well today. Then in my head i thought "pull yourself together"! Your just making excuses and this is the main point of this program which you paid $199.

So i did it! I beat the excuses and i went to the gym. I trained hard and burnt almost 400 calories.

Im doing really well!! Tomorrow is weigh in day, so hopefully the results will show. I weighed myself last week so it should be an accurate weigh-on.

I may reassess my goals in a few weeks but see how things go. I may aim to get to 79.9kg but im thinking that may be a stretch but if you work hard the results will pay off. Wont it?


Tuesday, February 15, 2011


Weigh-in Day!!!!!

Lost 1.1kg this week. So excited!!! Starting to look good. Total weightloss is now 5.5kg! Go me!

I love weigh-in day when i have lost weight. The nervousness right before i step on the scales right up to the elation of seeing a weightloss. Day by day i find it hard to see results so the scales reassures me that i am doing the right thing.

The countdown is on! 6 days until the start of the 12wbt. Thursday we get our plans for next week which i am so excited about!

I do need to buy a tape measure and im not sure where to get this from and going to Spotlight seems like an effort. Might have to borrow one. I know if i dont do it then i will be disappointed.

Anyways, boring post today - just wanted to offically record my weightloss!


Sunday, February 13, 2011


Today was a day of mixed emotions after a sleepless night!

This morning i was emotional mainly due to being tired. I had a long drive home so couldnt even go for a work to ease my mind.

When i got home i put together my shopping list. With one week to go until the 12WBT i have decided to follow Michelle Bridges Crunchtime book. I then went shopping. Buying all fresh food made me happy. I came home and prepared lunch. It looks so good i could eat it now.

Tomorrow nights dinner is pumpkin soup. Im really looking forward to that! I will see how my cooking skills go!


Saturday, February 12, 2011

I RAN 1KM TODAY........

My friend asked me yesterday if i want to go to Pump Class today. I said yes.

This morning i woke up after a terrible nights sleep (woke up 4 times) and decided that i wasnt going to go. I got up, went to the toilet and weighed myself. This is my usual morning routine now. After jumping on the scales i realised that i hadnt lost any weight since yesterday. This just confirmed to me that i needed to go to the gym regardless of how tired i was. So off i went!

Got to the gym and did the Pump Class. Then jumped on the bikes, then the tready. Managed to run 1km straight without stopping. I felt like i had good form. I loved it. It was amazing! I will be running the 5km Run for the Kids before you know it. I ended up spending 2 hours at the gym.

Today, i felt amazing. Getting up and going to the gym (even though i didnt want to) was the best thing i did. Not only did i get my exercise in but i made myself proud and felt food all day!

The moral of the story - sometimes an obsessive personality is not such a bad thing. If i wasnt obsessed with weighing myself on a daily basis then i wouldnt have gone to the gym today. Im 100% sure that weighing myself EVERY DAY is the right thing for me...


Friday, February 11, 2011


This week's weightloss was awesome - 2.1kg lighter. After a bad weigh-in the week before this was great. Id put in hard work and was happy what i had achieved. This figure bought my total weightloss to 4.6kg.

I know I should be happy with this. I know i should be as proud as punch but thats not how i feel. If i hadnt drank the other week or ate KFC because i was hung over then this number would be much more impressive. So, instead of looking at the total and being proud im disappointed that i havent lost more.

Im still obsessed with weighing myself numerous times a day and i think im in for another good week. I have definitely put in an effort this week! I can help it i have an obsessive personality.

I purchased Michelle Bridge's Crunchtime book yesterday. Tonight, im going to read it and have a good weekend of diet and exercise!!!

On the upside, im now under 100kg. Go me!!!!


Saturday, February 5, 2011


So this week was a bit blah!

Bootcamp was so extremely hard on Wednesday that i was sore not only on Thursday but Friday too. This made me not work as hard on Friday. I was exhausted as i hadnt slept that well.My food intake was great so much so when i weighed myself since last week i had lost a substantial amount of weight.

Did you notice what i did there? Im making excuses and it has to stop.

SARAH - it has to stop!

At least im well aware these days which is a good thing.

This morning, i didnt eat. It did cross my mind that if i didnt eat at all i might lose more weight than if i did. I started to get grumpy and snappy. I didnt intend not to eat. Sometimes i dont get hungry and it causes me to forget to eat. Then before i know it half the day is gone. I did eat a very healthy dinner.

Right now i feel heavy. I dont feel skinner nor do i feel like ive lost weight today. I feel like i have put on weight. The ups and downs of an overweight woman. Up, down etc.

Tomorrow's promise is i need to remember to eat.

Yesterday, i posted my commitment on 12WBT forums and today im telling you:

***I commit to running in the 5.2km RUN FOR THE KIDS run on April 17 2011 and do everything in my power to do well in my eyes***

Now ive said it! You know it! Dont forget to keep me honest.

Next post wont be all over the place like this one - it must be the lack of food.


Saturday, January 29, 2011


Last night i went out as I had a work function. I went to Karaoke and then out to a pub with one of my mates. I had already decided that i was drinking and this would be the last time i would drink until the end of the 12WBT.

So for lunch yesterday i ate Nandos chips. This was stupid! I regret it. I did it because i thought drinking is already stuffing up my healthy eating so it didnt matter what i ate. In my head i knew this was wrong but couldnt stop myself. How did i feel after i ate it? GROSS! I felt disgusting and bloated. I just wanted the feeling to go away. Its amazing how eating good for 3 weeks can show you how good you feel.

So i went out. Had an awesome time. Came home. Went to bed. Woke up and felt terrible. I threw up (which i dont normally do) and felt so incredibly sick. I had a splitting headache all day. I felt tired and my body hurt. I dont know why i did it. I guess i felt i had a "party animal" reputation to live up to. Silly me!

Tonight, i feel a bit better but still really dehydrated. I never get hangovers but today i did. I put it down to not eating dinner before drinking. Why didnt i eat dinner? Because i was still full from lunch. Thats one good thing to take from this - at least im aware when im hungry and when im not now. If people feel this way after every time they drink, it makes me wonder why you would drink.

Today i became aware that i actually do like it when i eat healthy. I like the way it makes me feel and look. From this day forward i intend to limit if not eliminate drinking from my life.

This may seem like nothing to you the reader but to me this is just another lesson learned on the journey that is my weight loss.


Friday, January 28, 2011


Ive had a crazy few days at work...if it doesnt rain, it pours right???

Ive still managed to exercise - yoga last night and bootcamp this morning.

Tonight, whilst out shopping i started to feel down. Struggling with the my weight in my mind. I thought this is it, i can feel that im going to lose my will power and eat. Its what i do! I wasnt hungry and i didnt want to eat but felt that i needed to eat.

So i went home, removed myself from any temptation. Went home and did Yoga.

How do i feel now? AMAZING!

What did i learn? I CAN do this. Im STRONG and i have the ABILITY! And most importantly, im proud of myself!


Tuesday, January 25, 2011


Weigh in days for The Biggest Loser at work are Tuesday. Was scared about how i would go as last week i had only lost 100grams. Was a bit down on that but what got me through was that i felt skinner even if the scales only said a measly 100grams.

So im about to get on the scales. Im scared and anxious but i feel good. But id also felt good the week before and look what happened. I wonder if i should take my Pandora bracelet and wondered how much that weighed. I mean i do have 11 charms! Maybe i should tie my hair up. I wonder if it weighs more if you leave it down. I wasnt sure what to do.

I'd already put a lot of thought into my weigh in day outfit. I wear the same thing, every Tuesday without fail. I cant have clothes making me put on weight expecially when every gram counts.

I jumped on the scales, 1.4kg of fat gone! GO ME!!!!!!

I then took a step back and wondered when did i get so damn competitive?

Did it start as a child when i played sport, or when i was a teenager who was able to by my own things as i had a job or was it when i couldnt stand someone who is a bigger fan of P!nk than me that i had to go to as many shows as possible to prove my love for her!

This competitiveness has turned me crazy. For the first time in two years i went out and purchased some scales. I havent allowed scaled in my house before because i new i would weigh myself everyday. Well, since i got them its worse than weighing myself everyday. I weigh myself everything i go to the toilet. Sometimes i will weigh myself before and after going. Crazy!!!

I thought it was but now i just put it down as needing to do it. Its a consent reminder that i have a long way to go. I dont feel pressure when i jump on those scales, instead i feel satisfaction or determination. If the number goes up then it puts me into gear and reminds me that i havent exercised today or that i havent made the right eating choices. If it goes down, even only by 100g, it makes me feel the satisfaction that i am on the right path and i am making the right choices.

Today, i feel tired. This is an excuse! Yesterday, i did think about my excuses as part of Pre-Season Task 2 in the 12WBT and this came up as one. Today i realised i would not have exercised on this day we celebrate the nation we are (Australia Day) had it not been for Bootcamp. This cemented the fact that i need to ensure i do exercise "before life begins". I can always go back to bed afterwards, or go out afters. It doesnt matter. With the right exercise comes the right food choices. As if i exercise i feel bad about putting the wrong things in my mouth.

So on this journey i promise to myself that i will get up before MY life begins and exercise!!!


Saturday, January 22, 2011


So its been about 7 hours since in joined the 12WBT. Ive spent about 3 hours of that time in the forums writing to people.

This morning i felt alive, i felt i was on the cusp of a new beginning. Now im anxious and nervous. Why? Because the people in the forums are so dedicated to the cause. What if i let them down? What if for some silly reason i cant do it?

The truth - i know i can do it! But people always have self doubt but if you really want to get there you throw it out the window and ignore it. This is what will make or break people during the pre-season!

So for me - its only a moment, a moment that i want let get to me. I am strong! I am invincible! And most importantly - I can do this and I will do this!



I did it! I signed up for the 12WBT. This is my first major steps in losing the weight.

For those wanting to know, i want to lose 45kg to get back to the my once pristine self. Ive got this!

So, what have i done to prepare myself. I started a Biggest Loser comp at work, i purchased a "Goals Diary" from Kikki K and ive been trying to eat healthy for the last 3 weeks which has resulted in a drop in my weight by 3.5kg.

Im doing ok by myself but you can never have to much support. Hence, the 12WBT. You can get support from family and friends but sometimes the support of others who are aiming for the same thing can make you feel that little bit extra.

So, from today i pledge to write here to share the fun and triumph that i experience as well as the pain and hurt along the way.

Have Fun!